For me, my 'why' is pretty self explanatory. Going towards some professional goals were illusory because I doubted that my intuition could be valued highly.
My purpose in life is tied with what comes intuitively to me, as well as what things I'm really good at.
Considering it all, I would **start** my professional journey pursuing what I am getting stronger in now. A COO position. There's also a calling to creative direction.
I would repeat my journey as a "technician, but I would simply seek to deepen my understanding of other aspects of a product, such as marketing, and how "business" works, which I have completely ignored for a long time.